I have cried for 6 hours straight…I see no end to the sadness.  Not now.  When I cry…when I’m hurt, I blog.  It seems that the emptiness that I feel finds solace in the openness of cyber space.  And this is a big one – so open up cyber wonderland and suck up the pain…because I don’t want to hold it alone any longer.

Tonight I said farewell to my dearest friend and companion.  Not a human, not a celebrity but my friend – one who loved me unconditionally – one who depended on me to be his life source, entertainment and validator.

Those that do not understand the complete life connection of certain pets (and that seems such a menial term) will never understand the bond that is created between souls.  It matters little if it is human to human- because the soul knows no boundaries nor recognizes intellectual “boxes” – only spiritual connections – and today one of my life threads – my spiritual connection – was severed, so quickly, so cruelly and so completely that I am in shock and utter pain.  The eyes reaching for me to ease his pain – holding his body as the life seeped away in gasps and spasms.  I’d give so much to take away the past 6 hours – or step back to 2 weeks ago and somehow magically stop the insidious “aortic thromboembolism” that left his hind legs paralyzed and his heart a doused ember.

How I loved you my dear Daniel, the beautiful Maine Coon, with the awesome personality and the constant “chit chat”, that chose me from rescue 8 years ago and never let go of my heart and soul.  Thank you for choosing me.  Rest in Peace until we chat again.  Collage

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